3 more to go!

Yeah I'm counting my papers are going down. I can't wait to get rid of this exams. It's so stress! Seriously compare to the last sitting, this sitting is much more stress but papers are a bit easier. I don't know why. You tell me. Yesterday 3.15pm was in the college after I came out early from Accounting Paper 4. I knew I couldn't stand any longer. It's too cold and I have to finish it before the last 15 minutes so I can go out earlier without waiting for the process of counting numbers of papers in the hall. (wasting time?)

Today I'm sitting another paper when I still left 2 papers to go which I still have exactly one week to study for it. But at least I can take a short break. Oh... *phew* I can't wait! I can't wait!

Last night I'm suppose to study economics but somehow I couldn't cause my eyes keep closing so I decided to take a short nap but then I can't sleep. This is stupid right? I have no idea why my sleeping session are out of time. I don't know why. Maybe I'm over worry about my exams. Honestly I know I'm over stress but I can't take any chances to relax. Sigh... But at least yesterday evening, was having a feelings that make me relax. I can't tell. Hehehehehe!!!

Now in the early Morning of 6.13am writing my blog here. Because I can't sleep. I decided to study again and again to make sure my brain is inserting all those information but I'm afraid when I reach the exam hall and open up the question paper... Oh god! What are all this? But so far I never tried before and I don't think I want to try! Crazy! Now i just wish that all my exams were pass at least. Of course I do want to aim higher but I'm don't dare to hope for more cause disappointed of the result will be higher. I hate this feeling! Well, got to study again! Wish me luck ya! =)

4 down 5 up

Oh first of all, 4 down and 5 up means 4 papers are down which is done and 5 papers are up cause it's still going on. I wish today was my last paper but for me NO! For others YES! It's always like that. Always happen on me during A level exams. Sickening! But what to do? Still have to take it. Sigh...

Tomorrow I'm having two papers in one day. This sitting was a bit flexible though three days having 4 papers. But at least I do not have sit twice in one day where the last sitting was quite tough, I guess that is the reason that I have not enough of studies and preparation. Anyway this time I have tons of confident in this. I hope so.

Today I went to Bukit Bintang alone. I wanted to buy a Tee where I manage to get one which is purple. Don't ask me why this few days I've been thinking of having purple shoe which is from Converse but Converse Butik doesn't have it. I have no idea why I wanted so many purple stuff but of course I do remember that I still LOVE red and silver. My favorite color! While I was walking alone to the train station, I realize I need something to brighten my eyes up even though I've put on make up so I decided to get a fake eye lashes to try out which is super cheap that cost... Opps! I can't remember but definately below rm20. I mean I don't mind the pattern and the price just to try out. When it works on my eyes, I'll buy a better quality. Hehe! =)
Yesterday Evening, I was browsing through those blog station that sells clothes and suddenly I  browse through a blog that sell contact lens. The brand is Geo Contact Lens. I never heard before this brand when I was in the Optical Shop but then it seems this brand is very stable in the market for Contact Lenses so I decided to take an order but then this owner or seller haven't return my mail. I really wish she could return my mail immediately. The contact lens it's quite cheap compare to what I've bought. I have no idea why.

Last night was a terrible night that I've been through. Many things happen in one time. Shouting, screaming, crying, sad, happy, noisy, smelly, tired, stress, etc. All this happens in our daily life and I know it but somehow I can't tolerate anymore especially the noise! I can't really describe here but somehow it just happen on me and I really want to shut and close my ears off! I coudn't care less either. And I'm deeply sorry that I lose my temper on you. I don't want people to know my problems and I know that I always hide things from you guys it's because I don't want people to share my sadness with me, I always wanted people to share my happiness with me. I'm sorry. I owe you a lot. I know you worry and care about me. Thanks. Maybe one day I'll let you know face to face. =)

Sigh...

Sigh...I hate to update my blog with those feelings are negative but somehow, I have no choice. I don't mean to put my readers to a negative way or negative feelings. But I just wish to share my problems out instead of no one to tell and push me to an end. I guess I just hate being use. It's not a good thing when people start using you when they need you. It's very obvious that you treat me like this. I mean, I thought you were sincere but somehow, I realize that you are not. And I guess you are the next one that I should draw a line between you and me. No more contacting each other, No more sms, No more chit chats, No more! No more! No more! This has to stop and I officially say STOP HERE!

Last night I thought I could sleep early but then ended up sleeping at 2.45am. I decided to study during that time and it works that my brain are functioning to memorize all those notes where I have to sit for my Business Paper tomorrow which is from 9.30am to 12.30pm. It's a 3 hours paper and I'm sure there is insufficient time for me to complete the questions with answers. That is provided I know what is the answer but I have confident that I can pass this. I really pray that I could pass this since I've study so much from the day I knew what is my problem in this Paper.

Well, let's stop this sigh and haiz problems. I don't want to make a negative issues in my blog. It sounded so emo and I don't want it to be emo. I'm afraid I'll influences my readers to be emo and they will worry about me. So let's cut it off!
First of all, I am happy to a certain extend that I can't imagine what am I going through. I get to know a friend that make me feel like chatting and online the whole day but I know I can't is because I have my own limit and I must control. It's the exam season! Control! Anyway I get to control myself because I know what am I doing. Anyway Thanks for letting me knowing you even though sometimes I'm confuse what are you trying to say. Well, I appreciate every single minute that you gave me chance to speak. Thanks! =)

Oh great! At least I have one happy moment to share with you guys. Now I'm thinking what's next? Hmm... Oh! I got one! After this Thursday, my Exams is done. I mean done as in 4 papers in a row finish in a week where I do not have to worry about it so much because there is last two paper on next week which is only objective but not really easy. I still have to study for it but not that pressure because I have one week time. I can't wait to finish so I can have a very good sleep. *Wondering* I am not sure whether my sleeping time can go back to normal? Hope there is a way. Sigh... Hey! No sigh sigh sigh here.. Hehehehehe!!!

What are You Thinking?

Hey! Last night I'm suppose to update my blog but due to some inconvenient causes so I'm unable to write my blog.
Well, yesterday was Saturday but I felt like it was a Sunday, so do my Dad thinks the same thing too. Maybe it's because today which is Sunday, he has event have to manage that's why he felt like he is working on Monday. Anyway he is used to it. Being an event manager is not as easy as what you think. From people eyes, they always thought being an event manager can earn lots of money but then Did You Ever Thought Of The Timing That We Are Working At? It's always early in the Morning which is about 2 to 4am where you have to set up all the stuff and make sure when the event starts, it's going smooth. Well, I've been helping my dad since I was in Form 3 or Form 4. It is not difficult when problems doesn't come up where things are going smooth. But when the time, you feel like resting, Opps! Problems are up! It is a routine in the event that every time it has to be happen like this.

Great! Now almost every night I can't sleep well. I have bad dreams for two weeks and I have lack of sleep due to those bad dreams waking me up and exams is right here making me stress. I realize even in my dream, I'm having my subject paper notes with me where I still can memorize until the next Morning when I'm awake. It's almost every night I'm trying to sleep early so that I could have more energy to study on the next day. But somehow, I can't do that. The earliest time that I can sleep at is 12am where I woke up at 6.55am. It's like a normal daily sleeping time. I don't want to make it a habit but I can't control. I'm not sure what am I doing but this is happening in my life right now! I wish after this exams, I could relax and have a very nice sleep without having bad dreams and awake at any minute. =)

On Friday, Mr. A called me up. He ask me when am I going to Korea? What time I'm going? Or you came back? Have you bought me any souvenirs? When I heard those questions, I was like... WHAT?! Stop asking me so many questions in one time! I'm not the person like buying stuff for people unless you are special to me. Yeah! Maybe last time you are special to me but now you are not. I'm sorry. I can't control this kind of feelings. At first, I thought having you back but somehow, something has stop me and we should draw a line between us. ;)

Buying and Wishing List

Well I can say I can't decide which one is the best but all I know the differences is how many times zoom which Nikon has 5x zoom where Sony has 4x zoom only. Is zooming that important? Yeah! I want to get it. Bring it on BABY!!!

I always remind myself what to buy and what should I buy even though I know it's not important but life is like this, if you don't buy it now. Wait till when? I can't afford to wait cause you won't know next minute what will happen to you.
Wow! I guess converse shoe is what I want desperately! I can't get it here and I don't know where else can I find this. I seriously have no idea why Malaysia doesn't have this product where I want it so much?! Or merely just KL doesn't have this? I don't know! I'm crazy over it now! I realize Converse sizes are changing and this might not be a bad thing cause you won't have to worry about half sizes? Yeah! That's my point! Now from 7 1/2 to size 8.. Huge size? No... Take a look at my height! Definitely is normal!

Puma bag! Actually it's not important to get this but I can't be stopping for it? Well, I should say I love Adidas too but then... I wonder why there is nothing to buy from that shop? But I heard there is a 60th Anniversary and WOW! Cool! You should check the Jacket out! Freaking cool! Especially people like me loves RED! If you loves BLUE, definitely YOU will FALL IN LOVE WITH IT TOO! Trust me!

As you can see, the title was buying and wishing. Of course there is come buying list that I want it but I just can't get those pictures. I guess Internet is not as easy as what you think. Hard to click, Hard to find and Hard to search! Well too much things to consume and this leads to.... Tadaaa! Buy more! Not saving more!

The day before yesterday I've bought a New Purple Eyeliner. It doesn't brings out my eyes and all I can say there is no effect compare to my lovely sweet Bobbi Brown Eyeliner and no matter how, I still love my Bobbi Brown. What to do? Prices are different, so quality is different! Price doesn't matter, the main point is quality isn't it?
The next Target is to buy many dresses! Wow! I still can't stop! Why? Maybe it's my hobby? Maybe? You tell me. 
Let's say... My birthday is counting down... I wonder what will happen? Will it be like last year, having a lousy birthday but I do want to say Thank you to all my fellow college mates that gives me cash during Birthday, Presents and kisses and hugs... Thanks a lot! I appreciate it and I wish that it could turn back the time where the first time I met you guys. =)  But I do enjoy the moment that I had now. It is very nice and I appreciate it too. Thanks to you that remind me about it. Because I need a reminder like you guys.


Now I'm looking for a new hairstyle. Any suggestions?

Random.

It's random to snap all these pictures. Trying to act stupid and post into my blog. I don't know what am I doing but merely just want to release my stress. There it goes~

A day out with them.

This are some of the original photos that haven't edit and I don't plan to edit it too due to the original skin color and stuff. It's natural and even though some are blur.

Speaking about picture/photos, I've been wondering should I buy a DSLR cam now or later? I really don't know what am I doing. I can't decide till I'm older. I was thinking to get a Digital cam than a DSLR cam even though the difference of the price is only 1 to 2 thousands. Sigh... Let me think~

Last night is another night that I'm having bad dreams again! I don't know what's wrong with me that I keep having bad dreams non stop! I can't even stop it! Is it due to lack of sleep? Or there is something bothering me at night? All I know is before the exams, I get a stupid exams dream where I'm so scared. But luckily it's over! So I'm glad but when Wednesday comes by, I guess Tuesday night is the night I'm going to suffer again. This is not what I want. I just want something peaceful and happy in my dream before my examination.Oh God!

Well, last night around 8pm, I chat with Ms.J. I couldn't stop chatting with her cause I miss her badly. It's been a year our friendship are and it's still going on. I realize how much she meant a lot to me as a friend in college but now we are not in the same class and we are not going to be in the same college. I wonder what life's gonna be? Without her, is nothing because she's the funniest girl that I never met before. She's real nice! But not long ago, in msn, I got to be offline due to some stuff I have to do. I can't stop chatting with her cause I really miss her and have a lots of stuff to chat/talk to her. Anyway, I'm happy to have a great chat with her. *smile*

Yesterday I slept at 2.30am. I don't know what am I doing but to study to make myself fall asleep but just can't. It makes me read, read and read non stop! And now at 7.45am I've already woke up cause I can't sleep for so long. Something is bothering me. I even realize before I sleep, I'll memorize and study for my subject and before I woke up, I start thinking about my studies/exams again! I'm afraid to fail and I can't decide what should I do. All I know is to go on and have to be good! I know myself that I'm over stress and people can't see it and I don't expect people to see it too. I just want to be myself and I hope I can control my stress. *pray*

Now I have to rearrange my wish list for myself. Or should I say a buying list for me?
I don't know? You decide.

Edited Photos.

This are some edited photos which the first one is located at somewhere which is in Mon't Kiara. I'm sure everyone seen that picture before but this one that I uploaded is been edited.
Well the last 3 edited photos was in Times Square and as well as Sungai Wang. Photography by Michy and Edited by Baby Girl a.k.a Genise Low. If you don't know me, you are so unkind cause you are viewing my blog right now and YOU DON'T KNOW ME???
Anyway I'm still hoping a DSLR cam. All this while I like photography but I don't like to spend on it and now I'm spending on it cause I want it. *.*

It's the SAME!

This pictures was the same day as the sports zone event but is in the night where is some private function for some company where they get a DJ and some dance is going on but I don't see anything honestly.

First time using new style of creating post in blogger.com. Where I'm kinda confuse with it but I like the wording being typed out. It's unique and different from the previous one.

Yesterday after my exams, I hang out with two of my bestie from High School (as usual). Soon will upload some of the pictures even though is a bit blur and this reminds me of getting a DSLR camera. Sigh... I'm gonna get it soon! You just wait! Hehehehehe!!!

Wish List for this Year Birthday, It's early!

I know it's a bit early but somehow I just can't afford to forget about what I want. I'm going to get it even though I'm confuse but I don't care. I still want it! Hope to get it from my birthday. =)
Last but not least, I love shoes. You guys don't know isn't it? Yeah! Cause I don't post it. I just love it. But my wish list will be full of shoes except a DSLR camera which I wanted it for my future or present? Yeah! Both ways.

Finally.

Finally I got proper blog skin for my boring blog. I don't even think there is people reading it too. But I still have to write it because of myself. The reason is to remind every single memory that I've gone through. I know it sounded stupid but sometimes blog doesn't write for someone to read or someone to see in fact is for your own to remember what have you gone through. So I guess it's back to normal where I don't give damn on my words anymore! Anyway who cares isn't it?

By the way I've change my color to a bit brownish and a bit greenish. Well is because a bit of environmental friendly where people just can't believe me I'm part of the supporter where I really wants to help the earth or should I say: " Save The Earth! " ? Yeah! It's suppose to say Save The Earth. If we don't save the earth then who to save it? Citizens won't care either but I do care but a person can't care so much where nobody lead the way or follow the way. Sigh...

Well, yesterday Evening I called up my baby and was happy to chat with him out of sudden. Don't ask me why. Maybe without him, my life is like....Boring? Maybe? I don't know but I'm seriously very happy to have him. I don't want to switch again! He is the perfect one for me even though sometimes he get jealous easily but that is because he love me isn't it? I know I know... Somehow I know he really love me than I love him. Thanks baby. I owe you a lot! You are the best!
By the way he ask me why should I buy PSP where there is not much things in it except wifi and games where I have to buy original games which is very expensive. Well, when the moment he ask, I seriously don't know how to answer but I always find my way to tackle back which I don't want to make him worry about it. He worry this worry that then it makes me worry him back. Funny right both of us? I have no idea too but somehow we really really can't afford to lose each other. I don't want the same tragedy to happen on me again. I really love you.

Rain cubes?

First of all, this is the only thing I can mention that at 2.45pm, suddenly it rains and I have to get my clothes in and when I realize it is actually rain cubes where its not drops. Can you imagine how big was that drops until I could describe its like a cubes. I guess our world is getting worst or should I say cruel? My baby boy will always say the same thing to me, the world is cruel! Hehehehehe! Even though sometimes I don't get it but I always find it very cute with all his words. =)

Sigh...
Suddenly so many problems in mind which makes me feel so useless. Sometimes I'm wondering is it really my fault being in a wrong relationships (previous), I know past is past but somehow I feel this is related to the present and I really want to know what the HELL is WRONG WITH ME??? Maybe I'm over sensitive to what I've thought? Maybe it's just wondering? Dreaming? I don't know and I really wish to know. I guess like my friend say, "You are thinking too much. You are alright." Yeah! Somehow I do feel that I'm thinking too much. But this is funny where I think of it. I realize when someone left, you will appreciate but when he/she is with you, you won't appreciate at all. This happens to me when people doesn't appreciate me. Now he is back for me. Why? Why do you have to do that where I have no feelings towards you and make me feel guilty about it? This is not suppose to be happen on me! What is PAST IS PAST! I only care about my presents and this will bring me to a great future.

Sigh...

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